We took a kayak down the river in Bonaventure, QC on our honeymoon.
The sun browned our arms and legs while the current moved us. We paddled in unison, my partner in the back steering us gently. It was a beautiful day and the water was so clear I wanted to reach out and grab every pretty stone flashing up at me. The river had a song and it sang to us all afternoon. I memorized it in my heart.
The clarity of the river mirrored an evolving clarity in my understanding about what it means to 'be in the flow' of life. There is a stream (of consciousness) with a strong current that carries us to an inevitable landing place where the course of the river (this lifetime) meets the expansive ocean (eternity). We will all arrive eventually. With its rough rapids and calm stretches, the journey requires faith in the river to follow its current, and faith in our capacities to work with it; to take decisive action when necessary, or stop and 'go with the flow,' letting it carry us. Life, like paddling, gets easier with more practice, and it is fun and comforting to share the journey by paddling together with someone.
I complicate things unnecessarily when I am not 'in the flow.' Sometimes I put pressure on myself to effort against the grain. I have believed in the struggle to take control of my life, forgetting that my life is unfolding in its own rhythm. Fortunately, I am animated by the love of Infinite Creation which is playing me like an instrument: Spirit in breath and water, time, space, place, and frequency. I am a momentary flash of light in the bubbling stream. When I surrender to my life and its inevitable expression, I open the door to profound healing and 'magic', synchronicity and divine orchestration.
Getting married in my forties felt different than it did starting out at twenty-one. Back then, I did not know who I was; to be honest, I did not like myself very much and I treated myself poorly. It took years of reclamation to gain the self-acceptance I have now. I attribute this healing to my voice work. Learning to love and appreciate myself translates into a very different way of relating to and accepting others. I bring my imperfections and my uniqueness to the table in humility and love and it shapes my connections and expressions in powerful ways. I like that I am and this translates into every language and every situation I encounter.
Recently, I spent some time among a group of community elders, watching them singing and dancing and enjoying each other's company. Their physical youth was gone, but the spirit of eternity within them glowed vibrantly. In riding the river of life, the years of experience manifest as lines in the flesh, a curve in the back and sparkles the eyes from all the sunlight glinting off the water. I am touched with deep respect for their journeys, their knowledge, their expertise, their courage and persistence.
The human mind cannot grasp eternity but as we start out on the river it seems that is how long we have to go. Only once we start to see the outline of our destination over the horizon, our perception of the journey changes and we realize it will come to an end. This recognition reveals the preciousness of this now moment and the importance of living it out in its fullest expression with deep pleasure and appreciation.
Let the expression of Infinite Creation manifest through you as you ride the current. Go with the flow, enjoy, and thrive.